Wow. It's been a while. If it wasn't for my quotes, I'd have probably forgot about this blog.

I find it harder and harder to pen down my thoughts. Is this my language dying on me, or perhaps the deterioration of my brain's ability to articulate clearly? Well, I don't think I'll ever find out.

I can't stand it. I need to bitch a little.

Seriously? You're gonna complain about Elins? These adorable little creatures that sadly, look like pedo-material to you?

Maybe because I'm Asian, I'm into anime, blahblah, I love this race a lot. They are the main reason I picked out Tera amongst the many MMOs to try. (And tbh they looked exactly like my DragonNest Archer mod...) Sure, you don't like them, doesn't mean that everyone hates them and they should be removed in the western localization. This may be just my assumption, but I believe there's lots of people out there who actually love the japanese/korean art and character designs compared to the western ones. This originated as a Korean game. What's wrong with keeping the character designs to appeal to the community? If you don't like it you could play some games with western-like characters like WoW and god-knows-what because seriously, I hate those designs so much I barely bother to touch them at all. So I feel that it's a perfect localization of the game. And helllooo, they even added cloth to all their revealing clothes what more do you want goddamnit.

You talk of them being disgusting. Seriously? You don't see me complaining about fugly western character designs with this fat figure (with huge tits and asses of course) disgusting. This is personal tastes, isn't it? And in my honest opinion, the gaming community brought this on themselves. Everything's about appealing female characters so there's so many obnoxiously large-boobed characters out there, not that I'm complaining, just to cater to you guys. Since there's a huge fanbase on cute, young female characters out there as well, so of course, they made the Elin.

And I don't really get what's the discrimination against child pornography about compared to adult pornography? What's the difference? Rape is still rape consensual sex is still consensual sex. Women in the past had sex at like, what, 12? I don't see any problem with it as long as it's consensual, seriously... I mean, sure, it's illegal, but other than consequences of the law you have to face I don't see anything bad about having consensual sex with a child. Anyway, I think it's pretty stupid how people are so against child pornography when probably 95% of the people don't act on what they fantasize at home. So I really don't see what the problem is with these adorable Elins when you have sexy High Elfs doing exactly the same thing the Elins do - attracting horny bastards (or whatever you guys like to think of all the people who get attracted to the pretty females in the game) to play the game.

With love,
someone who loves attractive characters all the same in all games, including the large-boobed females and flat-chested lolis, without discrimination due to sexual morals.

I realize that I rarely ever put titles. I can never come up with any good ones anyway. Songs, poems, chapters, or even blog posts. Lol.

Everything seems like a mere illusion now. The notes, the tones, the songs...they're just here, yet they're so distant. Maybe they never did belong here. Belong to me. None of this. Sometimes, I even wonder if I'm in the right place. Whether I'll wake up tomorrow and realize that I've been living in a dream. And realize that I can't even dream well enough.

Recently, the lines between reality and fantasy are just blurring till it's too much to handle. The strong feeling of getting devoured overwhelms me.

Your anguished cries resounding in my mind. Terrorizing. Please, just go away. It's just in too much of a disarray right now.

Such repulsive filth... How utterly gross. Scratch it off, rip off all of these appalling stains on this skin.

I still hate Ken for indirectly killing Shinjiro. Gah.